I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need'em
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories, I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah
And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday
It's an old song but misty played it today and now it's in my head. I just can't believe it. He just better not have her around Aubrey because that would be the worst thing he had ever done in his life. But life goes on and apparently it goes on faster for him. Ill get my life together and be better and he will think of me. He will wish he didn't fuck this up and it will be too late. I'm moving on and it feels great. I will make things better for Aubrey and I so she can have an awesome life. :)
Brandi,
ReplyDeleteI know Jessie and I were joking about her and stuff yesterday, but I really am sorry. I can imagine that would be terribly hard to deal with, and you are seriously so strong, to still be going and being so rational and nice to him despite what is going on. (I'd still be in bed crying, probably plotting how to get even. I know, sounds healthy. :)p
If you need anything, let me know. I can watch her sometime if your Mom or Misty can't, and I am trying to find out places hiring for you.
He did you really wrong, as I am sure you know. And it is hard for me to believe he did that to you and Aubrey. :/ I know you Love him, and you should. You guys were together for awhile, but you are so right in moving on. Just keep going and make him regret it like you said. He will forever be here he is in life right now unless he makes changes himself.
I have always been the strong one its my thing. I have always had to do it for someone. My siblings or joe or my mom now Aubrey. I just have to. So it just makes it harder when I break because I do it alone because I can't let people know I'm not strong. Idk it's just me. It's how I have been and idk why. I feel bad when I break because I just don't know what I am if I'm not the strong one.
ReplyDeleteThanks your seriously being so nice. I know that I wasn't perfect either but I feel like I don't deserve that. I don't think anyone does. I know I have done somethings in the past but they weren't nearly as bad
I understand that. Moms are supposed to be strong too. I just think it is great you are. Just make sure you are talking about it or even crying when you need to, because it is hard to stay strong when you let it build up. That's what happened when I started cleaning all the time. I was trying to stay strong for Sam so she didn't think anything was wrong and Jessie so he didn't have to deal with it because of me. But it didn't turn out pretty.
ReplyDeleteYou are welcome. I really do mean it. And nobody is perfect. The issue, it seems to me, but I wasn't there, is that *somebody* didn't want to talk about it so he stayed angry and ended up doing what he did. I know you tried to work it out. It can always be worked out IF BOTH sides are trying, and he just wanted to
"forget about it all."
I know but it's hard for me to break down. I hate doing it. It helps that misty is going thru it too so it kinda forces me to talk about it with her. Lol I just feel like breaking is weak and I can't do that.
ReplyDeleteYeah I mean he didn't deal with it and that must have been why he did but idc it was still just as bad if not worse and te timing was bad. I was a little depressed after Aubrey and it just made it worse. I mean I have him the most beautiful baby girl ever and he just does that to me it makes you feel worthless and not good enough and it's just hard
That's true. I was thinking about that the other day. It happened around the same time so you guys can really connect on that. It really helps to have at least one person who really understands.
ReplyDeleteOh. Definitely. No excuses for him at all! After having a baby you feel all tired and crappy and I know you were hurting bad! I just remember you being so tired you couldn't focus. I was worried about you. It took awhile for you ro recover. But then that on top of it. Yah. I can see why it would hurt. You have put up with it long enough. He'll think of you when he realizes how stupid it was to give up his family, a super supportive wife and an awesome kid, for some fling.
I hope he does. It will make me feel better. I mean I did everything for him and he left. I put up with catching him cheating 5times. Seriously who would do that. Not many people. I gave up a 5 year friendship for him. And hurt someone super close to me just to be with him. It breaks my heart I had to hurt that person. I seriously regret hurting them now and I wish I could fix it but I'm not sure I can.
ReplyDelete